I’m always thought of as “cute.”
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I HATE being called cute. Why can’t I be hot? Or gorgeous? Or even pretty? All my friends are those things! Being cute means I qualify under teddy bears, puppies, and babies. I’m a 15 year old girl. I don’t want to be fucking cute. You know why? Because NO ONE goes after you when you’re cute. Boys only go for the sexy, hot, pretty, and gorgeous. And whyyyy am I not any of those other words?
1. I have no boobs. None. At all.
2. I have no butt. Again, nothing at all.
3. I’m short as fuck. No guy wants a fucking midget.
4. I’ve never done anything crazy. They all think of me as an innocent little girl that will never in her life, do anything wrong. Or badass.
Well guess what? I may not be able to change the first 3, but mark my words by this summer, I WILL change number 4. You’ll all see……
I know it’s not fair that I’m not even that fat and I’m probably really offending a lot of people by saying this, but I do not like my body. I’ve been eating unhealthy, not doing enough cardio, not taking care of myself. But I have been trying to work on gaining muscle.
It just sucks when you’re looking at your fat stomach for a straight 2 minutes with complete and utter disapproval. Even though I’m not chubby in everyone else’s eyes, it’s definitely not what I’m used to. Never in my life have I been self-conscious about my weight. I’ve always been skinny and I used to be able to eat whatever the hell I wanted. And I can never complain about gaining weight because I know everyone will get mad. But sometime’s it just upsets me to think that I’m letting myself go. I see all these really hot girls with flat stomachs and belly rings and white teeth and acne free faces and I can’t help but feel insecure. It makes me just wanna say “Screw it. I’ll die alone because I’m ugly and fat. I peaked last year.”
You have no ideaa how jealous I am of her.
First of all, she’s fucking drop dead gorgeous. She’s a fucking freshman and she got the attention of some of the cutest boys at school.
She’s got a really nice body cuz she’s in fucking track.
She has a bunch of upperclassmen friends. When I was a freshman I was awkward and I sat in a corner.
The last reason is the one that actually kills me, she’s capable of taking you away from me and making you her boyfriend :( you don’t know how much I want to be her. And if she gets you, she’s literally taken EVERYTHING from me. And why does she deserve to have you? Why does she get to hold your hand, kiss your face, have your arms around her in public? It pains me to think of all the things you guys could have together, and all the things we could never be.. :’(
